Well, of course I'm pretty. [ Said with an air of someone who has been told, many many times, just how pretty she is. But, really, please,, Jester, is it not obvious? ] How long do you imagine this might go on, then? Is it just a game?
Like, really pretty, [Jester was starting to clarify, when Sidony side-tracks her.] oh, um... Jeez! I don't know. I have never had a secret admirer before. My mom did, for sure, she had tons of admirers, and some of them were not very secret, but, me? No way, man.
So, like... I don't know what to do, exactly. You know?
Thank you, Jester. [ She sounds almost touched, now, rather than expectant; it means more when you think the other person is handsome, she realises. But she breathes out. ] I'm not sure either. I've never had a secret admirer or my own either.
How? That is crazy, man. Did you live with, like, a bunch of blind people? Who couldn't see how pretty you were? Or did you live in a tower, and you only went outside when it was night--or did you wear a big hood all the time--oh, or maybe you disguised yourself, I had to disguise myself before and it is fun but I like being me...
Oh, no. Sidony: you must have had admirers so secret, they could not even tell you. Because you are great. Like, I admire you, totally, totally.
[ This is all so much for her right now. She feels a little unsure of what to do - Jester is being so kind, is being so sweet, and she wants nothing more than to thank her and Eros arms around her and - none of that is important. She breathes out instead, pursing her lips before she grips her skirts.
This is too much. She cannot think about it. ]
I did go to balls and such things, of course. My mother showed me off, and I have had some admirers, but never anyone that sent me gifts like flowers or poetry. Perhaps I was never deemed as attractive or winsome as others. You’re being very kind, but... Maybe not everyone agrees, my dear.
[A matter-of-fact and easy answer. Jester clicks her tongue against her teeth, dismissive.]
And they were very stupid, too, be-cause, you are great! There are lots of of pretty girls, of course, and they should all have admirers. There is nothing wrong with you, that you didn't. That's stupid.
[ At least that’s said with something of some pride. Sidony knows that she can scare some men - she was witty and snippy and had very little tolerance. ]
I know I’m a marvel, of course, but I appreciate the sentiment, Jester. Thank you.
Oh, sure, yeah. I totally mean all of it, so it is no problem to say it.
And yeah maybe, they were intimidated, like my mom gets that sometimes, from people, in a different way than you, I think, but... you're not that bad. Like, you have always been very sweet to me! And even if you were not, I would still like you. I can tell that you are good.
So if you intimidated them, then they were not even worth your time. So whatever! Right?
And I will hope that you get a secret admirer too. Even though I do not technically know what to do with mine, besides-- [And her voice takes on a certain suppressed giggliness, aww man,] get all blushy
Whatever is a very good suggestion, I imagine. It's not as though I am in a position to be considering my levels of intimidation, not when I have a rather important job to do. I can't be too intimidating as a surgeon, can I?
[ She sounds gentle enough, though, a little nervous. It's rare for someone to be so boldly honest with her. ]
Perhaps you should simply embrace it. Enjoy the fact that someone is interested in you.
I don't know, but I am pre-tty clever. My best friend, Nott, at home? We have kind of a detective agency, because we are very good at detective work, and solving mysteries and stuff.
[Though saying that does make her miss Nott a little more than usual.]
If she was here, we would solve this in no time. I bet I can solve it alone. I can use what clues I have and then wait for more clues, and then, when I have all of the evidence, I will know who it is.
Oh, Sidony. If Nott came here? I would introduce you to her so fast. You guys would become best friends, too, I know it.
[Maybe not. But isn't every girl's dream to have her best friends become best friends? Or something? And while she's thinking of this--does she really want Nott to come here? It is a tough question.
Not as tough: figuring out her secret admirer. Well, maybe.]
Ummm... I don't think I have other clues. But I have to look around a little more, you know? Do some investigating. This is just the very first part of it. Wow, Sidony, thanks! You have helped me a lot.
I’m sure we would. I don’t wish for more of your friends to be brought here and stuck, but I would be glad to meet her, just... [ Hesitating. ] Just as I have been very glad to meet you.
[ She’s never had a friend anything like Jester before. It’s baffling to think of how fond she is of this woman, even if she knows why. ]
You’re more than welcome. If there is ever anything more I can do for you then please let me know.
Aww, Sidony. I am very glad that I have gotten to meet you, too. It's one of the best things about being here. It's hard sometimes, you know? Being here. I miss my mom, and all of my friends, and my room--you saw how great it was, yeah?--except I guess even at home I hadn't seen my room in a long time.
And if I didn't have such good friends here, like you, this would all totally suck gnoll ass. But it doesn't. It's more like another part of an adventure, with more really good friends.
So I will totally, totally tell you if you can help me out. And I will totally, totally send you messages so you know how it is going with my secret admirer and stuff, okay?
I'm not sure I can empathise, since I can visit my parents whenever I wish, but I am glad you've found some comfort here. It's good to know that you are finding happiness, too.
[ Softly said, as if it's more genuine than some of her teasing. ]
Oh--yeah. I guess so. Hey, maybe I can go and visit your parents with you, when you visit them. That would be fun, right? Parents like me.
[Probably parents like her. Has she ever met anyone else's parents? Sort of, yeah. Technically. Probably. Like people that she has met, they were maybe parents.]
As long as I was back in time to work on this case, so I can find out the answer and keep you totally informed.
You might learn of them before we go, then. My mother is Portia Venaras and my father Octavian Vestalus Venaras. I'm sure you would learn something of them in some book here of there.
[ Absently, as if she doesn't care at all, as if she has any kind of civil emotion about her mother particularly. ]
Oh, I wouldn't mind being distracted. I think you are just great.
[And she means that, definitely, definitely. There is something about the way that Sidony talks about her parents that makes Jester think, wait, something stiff or something, but--
Okay she's still impressed.]
Wow, are they really so famous that they are in books? Probably my mom is in some books and scrolls and stuff too. But probably for different stuff. Why are your parents famous?
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So, like... I don't know what to do, exactly. You know?
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[It comes out half a squeak, but full disbelief.]
How? That is crazy, man. Did you live with, like, a bunch of blind people? Who couldn't see how pretty you were? Or did you live in a tower, and you only went outside when it was night--or did you wear a big hood all the time--oh, or maybe you disguised yourself, I had to disguise myself before and it is fun but I like being me...
Oh, no. Sidony: you must have had admirers so secret, they could not even tell you. Because you are great. Like, I admire you, totally, totally.
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[ This is all so much for her right now. She feels a little unsure of what to do - Jester is being so kind, is being so sweet, and she wants nothing more than to thank her and Eros arms around her and - none of that is important. She breathes out instead, pursing her lips before she grips her skirts.
This is too much. She cannot think about it. ]
I did go to balls and such things, of course. My mother showed me off, and I have had some admirers, but never anyone that sent me gifts like flowers or poetry. Perhaps I was never deemed as attractive or winsome as others. You’re being very kind, but... Maybe not everyone agrees, my dear.
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[A matter-of-fact and easy answer. Jester clicks her tongue against her teeth, dismissive.]
And they were very stupid, too, be-cause, you are great! There are lots of of pretty girls, of course, and they should all have admirers. There is nothing wrong with you, that you didn't. That's stupid.
Trust me. I know.
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[ At least that’s said with something of some pride. Sidony knows that she can scare some men - she was witty and snippy and had very little tolerance. ]
I know I’m a marvel, of course, but I appreciate the sentiment, Jester. Thank you.
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And yeah maybe, they were intimidated, like my mom gets that sometimes, from people, in a different way than you, I think, but... you're not that bad. Like, you have always been very sweet to me! And even if you were not, I would still like you. I can tell that you are good.
So if you intimidated them, then they were not even worth your time. So whatever! Right?
And I will hope that you get a secret admirer too. Even though I do not technically know what to do with mine, besides-- [And her voice takes on a certain suppressed giggliness, aww man,] get all blushy
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[ She sounds gentle enough, though, a little nervous. It's rare for someone to be so boldly honest with her. ]
Perhaps you should simply embrace it. Enjoy the fact that someone is interested in you.
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[She means it, even if she is a little distracted by Sidony's suggestion.]
Embrace it. I like that. Although... should I also try to solve it? Like a mystery? Because I do want to know the answer.
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[ But there are no balls here, so there is that. ]
Do you think you have enough information to discover who they are?
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[Though saying that does make her miss Nott a little more than usual.]
If she was here, we would solve this in no time. I bet I can solve it alone. I can use what clues I have and then wait for more clues, and then, when I have all of the evidence, I will know who it is.
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[ There's a moment that makes her consider that, perhaps, Nott is someone important, but Jester had said friend and little more. ]
Do you have any other clues right now?
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[Maybe not. But isn't every girl's dream to have her best friends become best friends? Or something? And while she's thinking of this--does she really want Nott to come here? It is a tough question.
Not as tough: figuring out her secret admirer. Well, maybe.]
Ummm... I don't think I have other clues. But I have to look around a little more, you know? Do some investigating. This is just the very first part of it. Wow, Sidony, thanks! You have helped me a lot.
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[ She’s never had a friend anything like Jester before. It’s baffling to think of how fond she is of this woman, even if she knows why. ]
You’re more than welcome. If there is ever anything more I can do for you then please let me know.
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And if I didn't have such good friends here, like you, this would all totally suck gnoll ass. But it doesn't. It's more like another part of an adventure, with more really good friends.
So I will totally, totally tell you if you can help me out. And I will totally, totally send you messages so you know how it is going with my secret admirer and stuff, okay?
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[ Softly said, as if it's more genuine than some of her teasing. ]
I look forward to hearing all about it.
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[Probably parents like her. Has she ever met anyone else's parents? Sort of, yeah. Technically. Probably. Like people that she has met, they were maybe parents.]
As long as I was back in time to work on this case, so I can find out the answer and keep you totally informed.
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You might learn of them before we go, then. My mother is Portia Venaras and my father Octavian Vestalus Venaras. I'm sure you would learn something of them in some book here of there.
[ Absently, as if she doesn't care at all, as if she has any kind of civil emotion about her mother particularly. ]
I wouldn't distract you for too long, dear.
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[And she means that, definitely, definitely. There is something about the way that Sidony talks about her parents that makes Jester think, wait, something stiff or something, but--
Okay she's still impressed.]
Wow, are they really so famous that they are in books? Probably my mom is in some books and scrolls and stuff too. But probably for different stuff. Why are your parents famous?
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[ Which is not something Sidony needs to entertain right now. She's flustered enough. ]
Books of nobility and such things, I suppose. They're not quite as important as all that - don't give them the idea.